THE OLD SONG

 In 2000 I have completed my post graduate in Genetics & Breeding from Rajshahi  University of Bangladesh. My honors subject was Biochemistry. I joined in agricultural bank of Bangladesh in 2001. There I served as senior officer & as branch manager. In that period I sanctioned some loans,but those loaner gave fake documents of the mortgaged property.For this reason I lost my job in 2011.I have to repayment the loan amount. Our authority first told me to repayment the loan & they told me my position would be secure. I didn't take any money from any loaner & because of my simplicity I gave 32 lakh Taka to the loan account. I got the money from my father. He got that money at the time of his retirement from his job.
Since 2011 I'm trying to get some fund to open a book retail shop & build a high rising 4 unit apartment building in my local town Rangpur,which is now a divisional town & well known as a educational town.
Though I read in a modern subject, there is not enough scope to get a job related to this subject. Moreover I had no relation with this topics for more than 10 years.
You wanted to know all about me so I'm sharing this here. I was a relatively big officer in my lost job.So I'm unable to adjust in all job. I have joined in a junior school but its salary is too poor to describe. I've 3 children & the elder one is just 9 years old. I cannot meet with my friends out of shame. I cannot go to my home town Rangpur where my parents live. I'm with my family in Gazipur district where few people knows me.I spend my days like a thief though I didn't done any major sins in my life.I always pray to Allah that he should forgive me if I have done something wrong.Not for me I now always thinks about my innocent children. I'm such a bad father that I'm unable to meet their minimum needs.Due to malnutrition they always suffer in various diseases.
My parents always saying that I should go back to them with my family. But how can I go there with empty hand? We have few lands in Rangpur & in Gaibandha district. A 6 decimal high land is situated in the center of Rangpur town. I'm trying to get fund for this land to start early described projects. But no one is helping. Now I believe when everyone listen to my story they think I'm a corrupted man & I'll not return any of their fund. What I'm only Allah knows it. How we spend our days he knows very.But unfortunately he also has turned his face from me. So, when Allah is not listening my prayer Who will be by my side except my nearest flesh, my family.

TRYING MORE & MORE WITHOUT ANY RESULT

Yesterday I left my family without giving any information about my destination. I know I'm doing wrong but I've no other option. I gave a simple note to my wife that it will bring good for them if I go away from them. As I'm a cursed man nothing is going to become good for me or for my family. My mail address is tanviralam73@gmail.com. If you want to give any advice or show any path to survive please write to me. I myself don't know what to do
Have you read DON QUIXOTE? This character is like me.

YOU WILL THANKED ME

In today's first post I'm going to give you names & links of three most well known books. These books are treasures of world classic. By reading these everlasting books you'll get knowledge, courage, pleasure. At the same time you will find what man is capable of. We will also see the power of human mind. So, please collect & read the books.

1.A TELL OF TWO CITIES By Charles  Dickens
2.A FAREWELL TO ARMS By Ernest Hemingway
3.ROBINSON CRUSOE By Daniel Diffo 
 

ALEXANDRE DUMAS

My debt to SEBA PROKASHONI is countless. My fascination of reading grown up by this publishing house.I been introduced to ALEXANDRE DUMAS by them in the year 1986 when I was just a boy of 13 years. I'm grateful to Kazi Anowar Hossain for their effort to introduce word classics to Bengali readers.

1.THE THREE MUSKETEERS 
2.THE MAN IN THE IRON MASK
3.THE CORSICAN BROTHERS
4.THE COUNT OF MONTE CRISTO

ABOUT BEN-HUR

First SEBA book I had read is BEN-HUR, originally written by Lew Wallace. I now can't remember who translated it.Because it was in 1985. Few years ago Kazi Shahnur Hossain also translated & also published this book. But I'm talking about the earlier one. That time I was a boy of 12 years & was reading in class seven. This book done a miraculous thing to me. I become a regular reader of SEBA & other books. So read BEN-HUR & enjoy a tell of the Christ.

A DEATH WISH

I'm a dreamer from my boyhood. I always hope that some positive will be happened in my life. But as a Gemini nothing satisfy me & also I can't complete anything. I lost interest from everything when it is almost done. From my inner soul I can understand it is my responsibility to finish all the jobs which I've started. But I can't do it. Something that I can't explain,stops me. This mentality is destructive & it has make me a failure person in my life. I'm now totally a ruined person. Believe me I feel shame for this nature of mine. Who want to be a failure? 
I born in 11.06.1973. So I will complete 40 years of price less life. Sometime I don't want to continue this meaningless life. But I can't. You know why? For my 3 little children. I know I will never able to bring some goods for them.But something forbade me. May be it's hope or countless love of a lame father.Or I'm a coward who fears to die. If any one propose me that he will give $1000000 to my family & I have to fight a war for them or I've to become a test rabbit for them. I will do it without any hesitation. Never I was able to give anything good to my family. If my death bring something good to my family. I welcome it.   

MORE CLASSICS

This time no textbooks just classics. Following classics are magnificent & immortal.

1. THE JUNGLE BOOK  By Rudyard Kipling
2.KIM   By Rudyard Kipling
3.CAPTAIN COURAGIOUS   By Rudyard Kipling